10:45 PM
i’m actually decently happy.
i’m excited because it’s finalllly spring and i can feel it in my blood and it’s making me REALLY happy. i honestly feel like going in my backyard and sleeping in the dew-y grass with my friends and just look at the stars and smell the fresh air and not give a shit about anything or anyone. and i don’t EVEN give a fuck about the fact i sound like a cheeseball rn. i don’t even give a fuck about most things at all anymore.
anyway yeah, that’s my little happy rant.
so also, i’m a little bit down about something because i’ve just folded up and thrown out this one little horrid relationship i was in. and all year i’ve really liked this one guy. and it totally sucks because he’s a really REALLY great friend and i wishwishwish we could just get closer and just be cool with eachother. not even go out, just reallyyy close.
it blows. i know for a fact he doesn’t like me and i know who he likes. but i’mstill getting mixed signals i guess. ugh i want to snap out of it and stop being a fucking loser. and i hate when this happens because when i like a guy a lotttttt i start trying to molddddd into like the girl he does like and it’s so fail. i want to be happy with my appearance and myself for once. like honestly michelle, you’re fucking stupid. just give it up. BUT I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DOOOO. i wish i was older and more mature and it wouldn’t be weird if people openly confronted people about this sort of shit. society these dayssssss.
guess what i’m wishing for this 11:11? ……awalrus :3 WHAAAAAAT
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