2:14 AM
so here’s what i did yesterday.
i wake up, get dressed and go to school.
8:30 i’m in 1st period.
by 3:30 im at home. i eat, watch tyra, and leave at 5.
i hang out in the pouring rain listening to my ex-boyfriend go insane.
i come home at 9, my mom has already managed to pick me up fucking drunk, and by 11:40 i’m she’s falling on her face and i’m crying cause it’s all on me.
my mom is drinking cause i call her a bitch and i’m a “fucked up little brat”
ian is going insane because i won’t take him back and shit.
yeah thanks guys, i really love this feeling. and i was really happy and now it’s back to the fucking drawing board.
current situation: it’s 2:20, i don’t know if i’m going toschool, i don’t know if i’msleeping all night but i really want someone here so they can hold me and tell me it’ll be okay and ian won’t shoot himself, and my mom will be a normal soccer mom.
ugh it’s pathetic that i have no one to rant to besides tumblr. i want to leave this town and go back to thorp, i think.
